Catherine's Cloud in the Sky!

11/19/07    Monday

Not trying to brag about it, but i'm surprised.  Well, shocked.

When i showed my Media Production professor what i have so far for the 10 illustrations that will be in the Dictionary Book design project that's due on 11/28 Wednesday, she said something that really surprised me.

Angela:  Yes, you fan out your images and see what other major colors you can have for the last 3 images.
These illustrations are beautiful.  How did you draw them?

Catherine:  uh, i just hand-drawn them?


 (why ask? there's no way i would dare to use copyrighted images...i'll get expelled from Cal Poly)


Angela: you know, the lines are nice, the illustrations are beautiful.  Don't you think so?

Catherine: yeah, they are.  i do like my images. 


(喂這位女士，妳怎麼突然問我對自己努力生出來的圖的想法啊？這不是指導吧?)


Angela:  you have a talent for illustration.  why are you here?

Catherine:  huh?????  i do!? (整個嚇傻)

Angela: yes you do. (她的眼睛直視我的時候，某人覺得好像快被看穿了)
　　　why are you in this graphic design anyway?

Catherine: because this shcool has no illustration major....and i don't want to go into fine art major. 


(哇咧，我真想回答＂我哪知道我會在平面設計苦難了５年啊，本來還以為自己可以做的很不錯，結果進來了以後才知道我沒有設計天份啊＂，不過看在Angela滿臉不解的表情，我更不解她幹麻說這個)


 Angela: you're in the wrong major.  when will you graduate?

Catherine(繼續傻ing....還沒從震驚中恢復過來): in the end of Spring quarter, 2008.

Angela: you should go to Art Center to take classes for illustrations.  Not for the degree.  People who are seeking illustrators don't care about degrees.  They only care about the work you present in your portfolio.

Catherine: but i'm going to apply for Teacher Credential Program to become an art teacher....(小聲)

Angela: teaching is boring.  it's not great.  why not go to do something you're good at?  AND YOU HAVE THE TALENT FOR IT! (講到這邊她死盯著我看，心裡好毛．．．)

Catherine:  .....uh, cause' i want to go into teaching, save up some money and then go get a Master Degree in Illustration........

Angela:  don't waste your time.  i've seen some illustrators' work before, and theirs are just mediocre.  you have a gift for this, why not just go toward this direction?  plus illustrators make a lot of money.

接著她就開始一直講下去，末了還問我作畫過程，還問說我每張圖大概花多久時間畫，又問說我有沒有參考哪個藝術家的作品
某人很心虛的照實報出（啊啊，我真該假裝它們有多難搞，高難度，或許還可以賺到幾分＂看你辛勞份上給你辛勞獎勵的好分數＂之類的．．．）
說心虛是因為真的沒花多久時間，只是某人畫圖是很享受的，要氣氛對，不然畫出來的東西很難看，畫裡的氣氛也會很怪異


走出教室後我心裡是很高興，又很不敢置信的
Angela比起我們系裡專職教書的教授來說，她在平面設計打滾了很久，經驗很多，是從 intern designer 小職位一直做到 senior art director 的人....後來還自己去開了家公司
她接觸過的相關人士自然也多，什麼 printer, commercial compnay, models, photographers, public relations, graphic designers, print artists, etc 都有
能被她如此稱讚，沒有覺得飄飄然是假的

其實我也曾想過一出大學就直接去唸插畫碩士 master degree in illustration
可是後來覺得當老師也不錯，不然這樣一直唸上去，出來之後到底是要幹什麼啊？
我知道碩士唸完是有資格到大學教書，教到的學生都是成人，你就算不管他死活也無所謂
反正書要唸還是不唸，是他自己的事情，you're not his/her parents, you're not obligated to make him study.  it's his future, his life, whatever.
但教 k-12 就比較麻煩一點，畢竟他們都是未成年，家長會跑來＂盧＂的機率比在大學高出許多

可是，我覺得當美術老師也很不錯，我的目標是當國中或高中的美術老師
我不討厭教學，老實說我還覺得教美術很不錯，適合我這個喜歡生活，喜歡有個人自由空間的個性
總而言之，我是個喜歡平淡老人生活的人啦！（好個中年女思想，哈哈）
再說每個寒暑假都有假可以放，不是很好嗎？
晚上還可以去大學進修，唸個 illustration's master degree, i don't see why it's not a good thing.

就算插畫賺得錢很多很多，我頂多也會偶爾接吧？不然至少也先讓我有到專業的程度再說
錢賺得再多，沒有那個時間去享用它所帶來的好（例如去旅行或者購物，又或者買房子好減稅），賺那麼多是要幹麻？
跟別人炫燿說＂我很會賺錢，我很厲害＂是怎樣？我也不會高人一等，搞不好還會累死（過勞死）
何必？

有很好，沒有也沒關係
錢夠用就好，每個月還能存一些到銀行當養老金＋急用的錢就不錯了，本人對於金錢沒什麼太多的幻想和要求
我是個很實際的人，因為了解自己，所以明白自己要的是什麼
不然怎麼規劃自己的人生？總不能一輩子靠父母吧，我也不可能去靠自家姊妹啊！人家也要養活自己的耶

不過我很高興老妹也要跟我一起去當美術老師！
我想她會是最有 logic 又很能教人的老師！阿雯會很棒的～
希望當上老師以後，我們仍能保有自己的生活和朋友，我實在不想要一輩子為老闆賣命結果連健康都賠上
那不是我要的
錢再多我也不要
虛榮，不是這樣虛榮的，我有多少年可以這樣揮霍？不認為自己有那個本錢
所以，我要和阿雯一起加油，努力成為老師！