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1/9/08 Wednesday
I think I'll have to admit to everyone here that I'm really afraid of this Winter Quarter. My deepest fear comes from I don't know if I'm still able to take good care of my friends + relatives who need my help on getting healthy. I know they really need my support when they want someone to cheer for them, which is something that I'm willing to do since I've been there at the bottom. I know how it is to struggle with weight issues. Most of the time, it's not just the weight that makes people unhappy, it's the low self-esteem that's also requires some attention.
I hate to say this, and I really don't want to, but I have to be honest. I can't be there 24 hours anymore, the school occupies my time + energy. Now I only have a specific time frame for my friends and people who needs assistance. I feel guilty, I feel ashamed........
The weird part is, I don't even know if I'm going to fail them on this, but I'm already mortified. I'm already prepare myself for the worst. If, the worst situation really, and unfortunately, did happen in the future, that is...
I hope my deepest fear won't turn into reality. I honestly hope it won't happen.
But I also know that if I burned out literally, I WILL FAIL EVERYTHING. INCLUDING SCHOOL. BUT I CAN'T JUST LEAVE THEM BEHIND....THAT'S AGAINST MY MORAL.
Great, so I got myself into this shit, and i don't know if i'm able to do this. Perfect. Exactly what i need in the beginning of school. Wonderfu l
PS: Can I just say "screw you stress" and right after that everything will go as smooth as my plan?
I think I'll have to admit to everyone here that I'm really afraid of this Winter Quarter. My deepest fear comes from I don't know if I'm still able to take good care of my friends + relatives who need my help on getting healthy. I know they really need my support when they want someone to cheer for them, which is something that I'm willing to do since I've been there at the bottom. I know how it is to struggle with weight issues. Most of the time, it's not just the weight that makes people unhappy, it's the low self-esteem that's also requires some attention.
I hate to say this, and I really don't want to, but I have to be honest. I can't be there 24 hours anymore, the school occupies my time + energy. Now I only have a specific time frame for my friends and people who needs assistance. I feel guilty, I feel ashamed........
The weird part is, I don't even know if I'm going to fail them on this, but I'm already mortified. I'm already prepare myself for the worst. If, the worst situation really, and unfortunately, did happen in the future, that is...
I hope my deepest fear won't turn into reality. I honestly hope it won't happen.
But I also know that if I burned out literally, I WILL FAIL EVERYTHING. INCLUDING SCHOOL. BUT I CAN'T JUST LEAVE THEM BEHIND....THAT'S AGAINST MY MORAL.
Great, so I got myself into this shit, and i don't know if i'm able to do this. Perfect. Exactly what i need in the beginning of school. Wonderfu l
PS: Can I just say "screw you stress" and right after that everything will go as smooth as my plan?
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