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3/1/08  Saturday

I won't talk in detail about what happened yesterday, because there were only two that were medium level fuse.  My anger toward my own mom has been there for a long time.  Everytime she's been way to brainless (到現在我都無法理解為什麼她認為家裡乾淨比要為明天的期末作業報告還重要,如果我的成績因此掉下來,這是因為我不夠努力在課業上。無比感謝這位女士的邏輯,讓我開了眼界,謝謝她的示範。錯誤示範。), all i can do is SHUT UP AND LET HER NAG.

i don't remember how long i've been stepping back and let her yell/scream/complain/say something that's pretty emotional...(yes, very sad)....and i have to put up with all this.  It gets even worse when Christine + Diana found excuse to get away from the house and stay over at friends' place instead of coming home.


*All right, for those of you who get to read the 2nd paragraph's last sentence, i don't know what's in your mind right now, but there's one thing i can tell you for sure: THAT'S THE RESULT OF REALLY BAD COMMUNICATION BETWEEN THE PARENT AND THE KID.


For two years---ever since Diana started to work in Vanille, there's not a day go by without the lady in the house keep asking me where the other two sisters went + what they're doing + when they're coming home.  YES, FOR AT LEAST 2 YEARS STRAIGHT.  If you have enough common sense, my dear readers, you should realize by now if you want to know who's going where, you should ask the person that's going, not her sister.  Simply because SHE'S NOT THE ONE WHO'S GOING TO SOME OTHER PLACES.  How hard is this to get?

But the lady in the house SIMPLY DOESN'T GET IT!

Believe it or not, she even went so far to call Christine at least 11 times when CHRISTINE IS AT WORK.  And guess what the lady said about that....
喔我只是想問她什麼時候回來

What a loving mother.

How wonderful.

Yes she is a wonderful, loving, thoughtful mom.  She told us not to do anything stupid when we're at work, so the boss won't find any excuse to fire us.  Guess what she has been doing....HOW LOVELY.


Ok, i have to stop here.  Because the crazy things she did are really long, and i'm tired.  Even typing out all the things she did are just wasting my time.  What for?  She will not change even if she only got one day to live, so why bother?

To cut the story short, SHE REALLY PISSED ME OFF YESTERDAY.  And i swear, once i can get out of this house (i'll have to be financially independent and have a job, of course), I WILL NEVER RETURN.


I'm not a selfish bitch that don't know what it means to be grateful.  But my tolerance for all the little things she did to me (small things can pile up and become something huge) , all i can say is:

Yes, I'll do exactly what you want me to do: GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE.



As for today, there's an article that I read that made me crying as if i'm a little kid....and reminds me of a little cousin who has a mom that constantly tells her that she's fat because the mom thinks she eats too much, that's why my cousin has a protruding belly.
And guess how old is this little cousin.  8. 
And last year she was asking how did I lose weight.  這叫我怎麼能不哭
我今天就算不是因為想起自己過去的事情哭,光想起這件事情就夠我哭到躲在房間裡不敢見人!!!!
語言的力量多麼大,為什麼大人就是不懂?
一定要弄到大家身心疲憊,甚至是痛苦不堪,才要來找一個common ground?  What kind of communication is this?
http://blog.pixnet.net/carol541106/post/13135052

I don't know whether or not the way my mom teach us is working, but if i'm the mom, i have 3 kids, 2 of them are trying to see me as less as possible, and the last one who's always at home constantly get hurt by me....I would not consider myself as a good mom.  Because 2 kids are avoiding me, and the last kid finally decides that she's going to follow her sisters' steps.

Congradulation to the lady in the house, she has now failed as a role model and a parent。
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